I wish this blog to be a platform for discussions on questions regarding God and the Christian Faith.
The best place to start is with the testimony of my own spiritual journey.
My walk with God has been like pilgrimage – a journey. No Damascus road experience. I came to know God by osmosis. I was born in Walthamstow, East London, just before the battle of Britain. Neither my parents, nor relatives were Christian. My parents were shop keepers who fortunately sent me to Sunday school, so that they could have time to themselves on Sunday mornings. When I was about 16 I met Valentine (a Nigerian) while staying for GCE’s at Southend College of Further Education. He was very instrumental and a key person in bringing me to make a commitment to Jesus at my confirmation at 17 hears of age. In those early days I aimed at 100% commitment, but I kept on failing – I learnt the need for daily repentance and forgiveness the value of the Lord’s Prayer.
In the 58 years since that commitment God has shown me some key things.
Value of being seen through God’s eyes, rather than through my own or other peoples eyes. God showed and developed in me gifts and capabilities that surprised me and others who mostly underestimated what I could do. God later used these gifts definitively in building His kingdom.
I left school at 15 with no qualifications, not even a school leavers certificate, but through the grace of God given opportunities, and divine appointments, ended up with a Doctorate in Zoology and at 37 became Founding Professor of Biological Sciences at a University in Northern Nigeria, having years earlier served in Tanzania as a teacher, where I met the lady who has become my wife. [Come April 2016 we will have been married for 50 years.] During this time Jesus through the mediation of the Holy Spirit developed in me a God centred servant-hood through leading Sunday School, discipling students to Wardening and leading a ministering team at the Anglican Church in Kano, Nigeria, through a long interregnum and anti-Christian activities requiring good prayer discipline and God given wisdom.
Learning to Give God the Control.
On returning to the UK I was unable to get back into academia, as there was a recession and universities were not employing. I was out of work for three years which resulted, among other things, in a loss of identity. I asked “Where are you God?” “Does the Holy Spirit really dwell in me, to protect and guide me?” “Does Jesus really care?” My answer was to take back control of my life from God – to put Him on the back burner. Let’s sort myself out first. And this worked for a while. I retrained as a Psychometrician and Career Analyst and started my own specialist human resource business, which at it’s height had 4 employees including two Psychologists.
Then came the next recession and a spectacular crash in my business. My house was on the line from a loan I had taken and the banks demand for its repayment due to reduced turnover. What a mess!
But what a faithful God we have, for even in my faithlessness He rescued me by a financial miracle from so clearly an unexpected source that it could only have come from Him. Trained as Lay Reader (Minister).
Extended this to a BA in Religious Studies from Brighton University. My understanding and interest in science led me to a keen interest in Science and the Christian Faith which called me lead facilitate the ‘Truthquest’ initiative where leading scientists who are strong Christians lead debating seminars.
Extended this to a BA in Religious Studies from Brighton University. My understanding and interest in science led me to a keen interest in Science and the Christian Faith which called me lead facilitate the ‘Truthquest’ initiative where leading scientists who are strong Christians lead debating seminars.
Learning that God is with us even in dark times.
My spiritual journey has taken me through the valley of dark shadows. Eleven years ago my son died of cancer at the age of 36. I gave up my business to be with him full time as he entered this, the darkest phase of his own spiritual journey. We prayed together and we were both drawn into a deeper spiritual relationship with God and as he died in Jesus communicated to me in a very special and specific way that He was welcoming my son into His eternal arms.
Continues to Develop Gifts even in old age.
I feel privileged to serve Jesus and over the years He has called me to work with Him in several ministries including the Healing Ministry as part of the great commission we are all given, and more recently in deliverance situations. I facilitated Healing on the Streets in Brighton which has now merged with Prayer Chair and am Director of the Bethesda Healing Rooms in Brighton, which is one of an International network. I preach regularly and lead services, including a church in London. The Holy Spirit moves in mysterious ways and has recently been using me for knowledge and prophesy. And he is also using me to assist in the spiritual direction of others.
Where is God Leading me from here?
The exciting thing is – I don’t know. But I am excited by the fact that I know, based on past experience, that Jesus walks with me as my loving mentor, protector, guide and faithful friend whether beside still waters or through the valley of dark shadows. I am encouraged by the words of the Apostle Paul: ‘but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is past and straining to what is ahead, I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwards in Christ Jesus.’ [Phil.3:12-13].